I PROMISE YOU HAVE TO HEAR THIS

Dearest gentle reader, 

Beat me. I'm coming out for saying this year I watched the entire Bridgerton series. And maybe did a little more. 

Don't judge me. Or do, if it makes you feel better because from the bottom of my heart I really hope you do. 

2024 has been a roller coaster. Looking back, I never really had 2024 goals. I wrote down a few things (I mean who doesn't) but all I wanted to do was exist. Take a break. Embrace the sun and breathe fresh air in a village somewhere with no network connection. Turns out life had planned out an entirely different plot. From rejected applications to having very difficult days when all I wanted to do was remain in bed... I have battled situations that nobody even thought I did. I have lost friends in the most bizarre situations and burying them got me questioning my mere existence. 

But then again I have watched my life move in waves I never thought of. I have found myself in pleasant situations and sore ones alike. I have watched with beauty as my friends and random people have celebrated strides they made all in gratitude. 

But one thing I have walked away with is the present of life. Existence. With it whatever hasn't been done still has a chance of getting done. 

So if at the end of it all you look back and you didn't achieve your goals, remember there are people your age who died in their sleep. There are people who died from a well intended demonstration. There are people who were having a good day in the office before they dropped dead. Merely getting through this year is an achievement that you had something to do with. Of course bills went unpaid. Nights have been spent hungry. Mornings have been hopeless and on certain days the flesh has almost yielded. But here we are! For coming through this far, we give thanks.

Before I pen off, I'm giving hope to those who feel like it's all going down. Remember in the end, whatever it may be, everything is going to be just fine. And if you're not sure, ask me. And it sticks to me like flesh to my bones. Everything will be just fine. 

Hugs.